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My name is Lauren.
this is where i put my life stories into the web for you guys to read. =)
I'm 19 years of age. and i'm born in Janurary




























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Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday was another Sweetest memory again.

Second time i've spend my time with you and you only with me.

I feel so in-love everytime when i'm with you.

Irritating you with my flying kisses are just so fun. I hope you don't get angry and gives me a chance to have my points being deducted.

One more time we're going to meet before i go off for good or bad ??

Three weeeks is where i'll spend my holidays in Brisbane.

Somewhere foriegn, somewhere unknown, somewhere i've never been to before.

I don't dare to wish too much for what's the result between you and me but i can only hoped it'll be the best of it, a positive reply.

Today,

Another week ahead.

A-nother week where i'll have time to meet up with whoever that i'll be missing while i'm away.

An-other few more days before i jolly well have to learn how to be independent.

Ano-ther few hours that i can spend with you before i will miss the hell out of me.

Anot-her new climate that i have to be prepared for when i'm there.

Anoth-er country. I'm Scared. I'll be alone. I'll have no one to turn to when i'm sad,tired,angry.

Anothe-r new semester of school will be starting soon.

Another new hope for a new relationship?

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1:04 AM

Friday, March 20, 2009
Today was the last the last day of attachment.

Inside i feel a sense of sadness that i'm not going to go for attachment on Monday morning anymore till the next holiday. And i feel happy bcoz this means the Real holiday is here !! yay!
We got the ward and LPS a large board and a bunch of fake but wonderfully nice flowers.
I'll put up the picture later on..In the next few post or smth. =)

Anyway, today was great for me.Coz ~ I'm emotion-less.
Today again for a long time i spent pretty alot of money on gifts. Well at least i know i did some Charity. ^^,

And yea.

We're meeting on Sunday again. Yay !! i just can't wait for it to arrive.
I mean despite from what you've told me just moments ago stuffs between you and him.
I agree that i'm sad but i'm not angry with you at all.
In fact why would i be angry with you?
I mean. You'rethe one who has to choose now.
This card or the other card.

I don't know. But i think i'm just numb to such stuffs now.
SO i guess with you or without i think i'll still be me.
But definately with you i'm sure i'll be different coz there's someone more to shower me with love,care and concern. Something which i've been yearning for so long now. I missed those feelings.

Am i still who i used to be ??

Guess not.



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10:17 PM

Thursday, March 19, 2009
With a long disappearance i'll firstly like to say i'm not dead in any way yet.
It's just that attachment is sooo Time and Energy consuming !!

Like everyday i can just be a B.U.M. eating soo much during breaks and then come back bathe and then go to sleep straight. Well of cause i've been online and F.B.-ing but then they are just the least i could put my energy on. =(


Anyway. Today is the second last day of this freaking attachment at Ward 37. =X
I had a runny nose since i started work, was having chills nearing the end of shift, feeling feverish when shift actually ended. I think it was because last night. Didn't really co-cooned myself into the blanket properly.. =\


Come to think about it it's not the ward that i detest but it's the words called ''attachment'' and the amount of energy they're demanding from you that makes you feel that Attachment sucks so much that you don't wish they're ever true.
But as much as i'd like to contraindicate myself. I Love Attachment and it's one of the module which i think i've scored well so far. =D haha..


My life if some of you wld like to know.
I think I've been on and off the rocks again.
This time i spent one of my random dreams with someone. And i can say i've never thought we could have done that. It's both our first time going to Sentosa at Night. Lying down on the sand gazing at the ever wonderful star-ed sky talking about anything that comes across our mind. =D
No worries no troubles just talking laughs and getting to know each other. I love it. Do you??


Next up is that I've watch my another latest Movie called " Dragonball Evolution "
Heard that the movie was not bad and all. But to my disappointment it was bad. The movie was bad. Maybe coz i've watch the cartoon version and then it's just not that really click.Like how can i say.The movie was so quick in pace. And the charactors are just there for the movie's sake. But i agree that those who've not watched Dragonball before it's nice and not bad.


lastly some words from my fav song "1 2 3 4 I Love You" : Plain White T's

There's only one thing two do three words four you.
I love you.
(i love you)
There's only one way two say those three words
And that's what i'll do.
I love you.
(i love you)

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8:42 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009
Bloody Valentine man!! Coz of it i'm still in fear.. Not the mention i watched it in 3D somemore !!

So My First 3D Movie goes to Bloody Valentine. DAMN!!

Today's attachment was Erm.. GREAT!! =D i think i was so great.Coz one of my in-charge asked me :
"You seemed to be very eager to learn alot of things huh".
And i was like YES!! i am coz it's the onil last chance which i can learn as much as i can.Imagine next year i'll be in PRCP meaning i can't do much practical. More of report writting and documentation instead.
So yupp Great day today !!

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1:02 AM

Sunday, March 8, 2009
time flies.
in a flash of time and it's already March.
attachment's been really not the way i thought or the way it was anymore.


secretly i think that Jason the real fun-filling never seemed serious Jason is slowly fading away.
i wouldn't say what but i can feel it. I can so feel it. and as much as i don't like this feeling and the way i am in.I can't help it.I don't know why and what has caused such drastic and major 180 degree changes.

This year to even start with was a bad one.
I had to force myself to learn that :
1)Friends they sometimes Come and Go.
2)Trust no-one but yourself.
3)Being alone doesn't hurt as much as i thought.

One of my silent resolution for this year was to be able to at least make an effort and go out with every single one of my beloved friends out there.
It's my third year in poly life this coming semester and i don't wanna miss another time that i can spend time with you guys.

As most of my close friends have knows that I've went to remove the corn in my left foot yesterday. Therefore resulting me unable to go out with Wei Tin, Emily and Jasmine as well as Sean for his be-lated Birthday celebration.
I'm Sorry.
I've never promised people and not do them most of the time. this time i apologise truly. Hope that you guys have be really magnanimous and forgive me. =)

To end this post i am going to put two lyrics from the songs which i think still serves part of my bread and water these days.

Aslyn-That's when i love you
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly

And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what

Katy Perry-Thinking of you

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...


Enjoy.

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12:14 AM

Monday, March 2, 2009
Date
Day

With the Ambassador's retreat camp that has just ended.
These are the new exec in the committee

President: Nur Aniszah

Head of Operations (tentative title): Cheryl Choy

Head of Welfare & Alumni Relations: Thomasina Kwok
Assistants Welfare & Alumni Relations: Sean Chi, Cheng Chun Hui

Group 1 Leader: Tan Xiang Wei
Assistant Leaders: Shaleihin B Pi'ee, Shanya Amarasuriya

Group 2 Leader: Janani Ramadoss
Assistant Leaders: Sherlyn Ho, Sarah Nat

Group 3 Leader: Samantha Chui
Assistant Leaders: Faith Lim, Leow Yi Ning

Group 4 Leader: Violet Teo
Assistant Leaders: Irsyad B Lokman, Cheng Xin Hui

Group 5 Leader: Toh Qiu Yan
Assistant Leaders: Ruth Yeoh, Benedict Tan

I would say that this year's newly appointed committee are just the people which I've all have in mind. Which brings me to the next point of

New Chapter which begins with a word Senior in it.

I'm already in the process of being a senior for my course as well as an Ambassadors.
Hate saying this but i have to grow up.
No more fooling too much already.
to Grow up is what i have to expect myself to be.
This is probably one of the reasons why there was a recognizable drastic change that the seniors have noticed about me.
Before the retreat I've also learnt that
"Friends Come and Go. Even Your Best Friends Will Leave You One Day"
Just by touching this has totally bring back nostalgic memories of specific people in my circle of friends.
As much as I'm happy for the chosen people with more responsibilities expected of them.
I admit that i do feel sad too.
Because some of whom was chosen i just forge a close friendship with them,
some i just thought i could pour out my feelings to,
some which i thought would be a normal ambassador just like me
no title
no pressure
no worries.
But then again i got back on my feet and think that things come and go.
Sometimes when they don't go our way we'll just have to accept them and live life as usual.

To end this post I'll just like to wish some wishes to :

Aniszah (Mei Zhen)
Thank you for always being in our clique (Shar,U and Me) every since the first training and bonding camp that we had.With this wonderful and full of responsibility position that you'll be having i sincerely wish you All The Best and Congratulations to you!! =) We'll always remain as boy-girl friends right ?! =D

Cheryl Choy
Thou we were pretty close once.Bitching with each other and spend time together they were so fun! =) Anyway you're given this really interesting post to venture and bring us to greater heights.I believe not only me and also the whole family of us are just looking forward to the
surprises that you'll bring us. =)

Thoma
You've stand by my when i was in my darkest time. Spend time with me while i was in my happiest moment.You're just someone who has been always my welfare person in my mind.I guess the thoughts that we've shared are always treasurable and learning points for us. Without you Scandal sometimes it just doesn't complete my life. Much with Luv =). You'll Always Be My Scandal.

Chiii
HAHA!! Well i was rooted with the idea that you're in this position. With the amount of Lobang that you have and the forever cheap resources that you can get.You're the BEST!! HAHA.. Started being your best friend when we first went to clubbing with Bernice,you and me are just parcel of my life now that i can't go to clubs or drinking now without thinking of not asking you two along. =D Anyway you'll do well in this title that has been given to you kayy. All The Best Chi. =)

Chun Hui
Heyy!! Till now i know i can't distinctgust you to your twin sister!! =D Anw i just hope that you'll be doing well in the tsk that you've been given. Thou i know sometimes it might not be easy but then Never Give Up! Thou you two are twins but i'm sure each has your own Niche points. So Hope To Differentiate You Two Soon!! =D

Xiang Wei
I remember that i worked with you once.And if i'm not wrong it was a fun one. I've not talked to you so much for as much as i know but i know with this new role that you've been given. I swear you'll do well and as a leader i'm sure you'll lead Group 1 to a better and greater heights. =)

Shanya
Y-O-U !! Miss Sixth Ave lady from the Upper "East-Sider" side of Singapore. I don't know how we first met. But then time has been kind and fate has brought us to weird combinations of personality together so close that we're so best of friends now. I mean from the racist jokes we have to bitching sessions that we have with each other. I truely have them remembered. Well at least i'll try to. =P Anyway being able to forge a fast pace but strong friendship with you "ya" has been one of my greatest achievements.I just wish we'll be closer and i wanna know you better and learn more of you. Thank You for being my Best-Friend Shanya. Hope that this opportunity that you've been presented Star in it. I believe you'll shine.

Shar
Well we started out as best friends in T&B camp in Group 2. Then we sortf of got drifte apart coz of school and commitments that we hav to concentrate on.Then we got back together again as gym partners to exama stressed up talked to buddies. To now once again Best-boy-friends. But then you just had to be away for a greater position given to you.And i believe that without me you'll do still as good.Performing at your best and do well kayy!! =)



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