My name is Lauren.
this is where i put my life stories into the web for you guys to read. =)
I'm 19 years of age. and i'm born in Janurary
Chapters.Pages.Paragraphs.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Today 25th day of the year..
It is the eve of the Lunar New Year for the year of Ox. =D HAHA.. So expect lots of Moo-ing here and there during these few days..
Yesterday. Went to meet Sandra in the morning. Then we head down to Sentosa for a tanning session!! Also i now got a Islander card !! Woots!~ Which means..i'll be heading to Sentosa more often now.. =D Yay-ness!! hehe.. I've got tanner kayy guys!! haha coz i can see the outline of my trunks. Hah!! =O
Lastly to end this post i've got a few songs sang by different singers but it's the same song.It's called Timeless.
Today was a pretty fine Saturday.I guess??Deleting away the Depression,Disappointment and UH!! i don't know.Shish.I was wasting my morning away today coz of my 1# Hobby which is sleeping.I mean apart from this i waited and waited for time to pass so that i could get a reply and then head out.And the waiting lasted for 4 hours!!Yes..Not kidding.Another stupid thing that only Jason can do.Juz staring at E! channels can really do the trick called:"Kill time".With all the gossips,news,behind the scenes gosh so much of infomation.No wonder there's an exsistance called "Hollwood Stars".
We finally left my place and took a cab down to Park Mall.Reached there and had our meal at The Glasshouse.Yeap!The one and only romantic place that Fish&Co. had if i'm not wrong.Then after that we walked all the way to Raffles City.Did some window shopping and then.Tata.We had to go our seperate ways.Not that concept which was bad but U had to meet parents.So i took the train back myself.What a way to end our second date.Geez.U said before we parted that "...we'll meet up again..." i wish it'll come true. <3>
Which brings me to today's topic of
"Is Jason Thinking Too Much Again??"
I mean i think one day i'll just end up in IMH.Seriously.I am always thinking too too much in whatever that i do and say and i just can't stop thinking so much.Sigh.SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!I mean if i think too much on the right stuff is really gud.But i'm always thinking too much on like the non-important stuffs!!I know some of you out there reading this will be thinking that Jason Grow Up lar!! or smth but i think i'm just like this. =X Idk but i'm just so insecure though i know it's our second time out together and we've done things in my room.But idk why but every U that i'm with i'm always all ready to be with U at the instant.Maybe i'm just being too Desperate like some people whom i know tell me that i am.
Did i not mentioned i did my first retest for CT and i think i could have done better studying and answered the questions better.But Oh wells.I'll just Wish and Hope that a PASS is what i'll see when the results are out.*Keeping Fingers Crossed*
I saw S on that day as well.After what you've told me over MSN.I felt the real presence of us drifting apart.Maybe you're feeling the same way too.But do you know you're not the only person who've isolate me.I mean i respect your choice of not being friends with me and all.But i can be real harsh at times but i don't mean to just dump u and N whenever i'm busy or just get to you guys coz i need you two.I really don't mean it to happened.
And also the last OH for the seniors of Ambassadors. Therefore i'll like to use this song to dedicate to each and everyone of you.Thou it might notbe relievent but i hope you guys love it as much as i do.It's called "Already Home" by Ha-ash.
Packed my bags and kissed your cheek turned around so I didn't see you cry, you cry sometimes you just can't explain the reasons why you have to say goodbye,goodbye
It took something, it took falling, it took distance, it took time, it took a lot of getting lost to realize I was already home, right where I was supposed to be
You were right in front of me I was not alone I was already home, sometimes you're too close to see the one thing that you really need has been there all along it took leaving you to know, I was already home
It took a long long road to see, what matters most in life to me was gone was gone but i thought what I was looking for was right here waiting at your door I was wrong, so wrong
It took tumbling, it took falling, it took distance, it took time, it took a lot of getting lost to realize I was already home, right where I was supposed to be
You were right in front of me I was not alone I was already home, sometimes you're too close to see the one thing that you really need has been there all along it took leaving you to know, I was already home
I was so caught up in the thrill of something different something, something new, it took a lot of missing you to see the truth I was already home, right where I was supposed to be
You were right in front of me I was not alone I was already home, sometimes you're too close to see the one thing that you really need has been there all along it took leaving you to know, I was already home it took leaving you to know I was already home I was already home
Sunday, January 4, 2009 Today is 4th Jan HAHA not the 5th.
Sunday's Post. Well today was awoken by my stupid-forgetful sister of mine.She left her keys in my bag yesterday when we were out. Thus she can't get out of the house. HAHA. Totally spoil my beauty sleep. Furthermore i slept at 4am this morning and i had to wake up at 11am just to go back and open the door for her to get out of the house. Totally seemed like she's a jail bird right?? HAHA. That's like one of the two horrible thing that happened this morning. The second horrible thing that happened was my FAV PUMA t-shirt!! The sleeve was stained by a few lines of red!! The smart Ria choose to tell me not to scold her when i was in a daze juz now when i was up. So i puzzledly agreed and then she told me that my shirt was stained. Like OMGes !! I can't do anything so juz had to say alrighty. Haha. So anyway in the process after letting my sister aka jail bird out of the house aunt and I went shopping!! Like Woots!~ It's been such a long time since i've gone shopping!! With my Aunt i mean. So i bought facial stuffs, berms from CottonOn (if you think it's the 15 or 20 bucks one NO it isn't it costs 39.95 kayy) then also got some other things. Had Ya Kun juz now too for Brunch!! Awesome rightt ?! So i guess it's not such a bad thing to be up Uber early on Sundays afterall huh?? =D
Today is 5th of January the fifth day of the New Year of 2009.
And why am i putting the word "Damaged" as my msn nick today. People have been asking. For i kind of know the reason why i put it and using it now. But i just can't explain this un speakable reason behind it. Maybe it's the truth text messenges that i've sent to that someone. Someone whom i thought age doesn't matter or count at all. But then now after reading posts from your blog. i've realised that i'm afterall wrong. i've mislooked the minor details of you. I was just trying to get you too much and i think for what i've done i'll just silently disappear from your life?? Stop texting you and all. F.Y.I i've just known you for onli days and i'm alrdy feeling like this. W-H-Y ?? maybe i just feel like i've found the one? then again maybe not. I can't help being not desperate to find a lover now. Do people out there know how empty it feels to not have someone to spend your birthday with??
Like what he'd mention in one of his post
"...almost forgotten how it feels like to love. the very basic feeling of love. the intimacy. the hugging. the kissing. the feeling of love. i missed the feeling. i missed the smell. that special scent of love. the pure indulgence in it. hugging ever so tightly. kissing ever so passionately. the simple, basic feel of love. no complexity. no hidden meaning. i cant bear to release the hug. gripping on ever so tightly. holding on to it for dear life. i am afraid it would be be lost. be gone. slipping through my fingers. and it did. it ended." i think i need to fall in love again to be Jason again. Where is the real me??
Which brings me to the next topic. U want me to be Jason again and when you have disappeared for like 2 months. what do you think i feel. have you thought of it ?? maybe you thought it'll do me good by not contacting me coz i'm busy with school and watching TV. but hey having Short Term Meomory is not an excuse. Then you go use the examples of best friends not contacting you for months will i forget them etc. I just don't know how to express myself and the effort of me trying to recall is really the max i tell you when we were on the phone just now. I don't mean to forget you but after what we've done and U telling me that you're straight. I totally switched off that time like u've said i keep blaming everyone but not myself. I agree i always do that finding excuses to cover my arse. Sigh. But now when i know you've "found" me nevertheless i'm glad that you despite me not remembering U you still cared so much abt me and willing to talk to me. I'm touched.
Then now it's the post for today. Part 2 Like maybe onli Sarah and Him knows that today i was bored stiff being alone at home. I swear if anyone were to place a camera in my room you're totally in for a comical show. I was like talking to myself tried to play music over the net. Worst of all i felt like having sex. Just to kill the boredom. Like totally damnit right?? Basically coz He was tired and didn't want to meet me. But oh well i can't do anything too right?? So i went online and had a session with Sarah. Did some push-ups later in my room and then went back to chatting again. In the whole process i only had 1/4 packet of peacans and 3/4 of vitasoy.Luckily dad came back to "Chase'' me out of the house to find sis. Found her at EXPO then we both head down to PP for a haircut together. Really short were our hair. Sis has been complaining since we left REDS.
Whao 2008 has just passed like that.Like what people say in a blink of an eye time really flies.
So many things have happened in 2008.All the experiences,new friends i've made,people that i've met, emotions that i've felt,mood that i've swung,food that i've eaten, impressions that i've made and many more thing that i've done.
Anyway tomorrow's my birthday I hope that this year will be another memorable day of the year and it'll be a good way positive i mean.
2009 resolutions :
Be a 3 pointer in school and stop hogging the place of a lowly 2-er.
Not to spend so much money on buying my stuffs.
To be finally attached before I hit the 2 in front of my age
To make it for next year's countdown's celebration.
To sit the Singapore Flyer though accidents have occured alrdy.(But who cares !! it's the memories not to mention the xperience too)
To be a great friend to every single one of my friends and treat like i've never treated them.
Spend more precious time with my family though i know as time goes by everyone has their own stuffs to do.
To be more prepared for tests and exams.
To be more fit and tan!!
Of coz to have more money !!
What to expect of me: a new colour for this year. (Green) a new lover?? a new amount of allowance?? a new timing for curfew?? a new me??
