My name is Lauren.
this is where i put my life stories into the web for you guys to read. =)
I'm 19 years of age. and i'm born in Janurary
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Thursday, February 26, 2009
26th Feburary 2009 Thursday
Just when i thought that being attached was the once again most wonderful things.
BUT
Then i was wrong again. I shall not hide that yes Jason has been rejected by someone yet again. This time we're both on mutual terms. Therefore resulting Jason to not feel anything. i don't konw why but i'm not sad, hurt, feel terrible. Maybe Jason has learn a string or two that not being with someone he can still survive.
In the previous post.
What has been written and typed they can at the most bring someone happiness or even joy. But then think on another perspective. They are just words that are formulated in such a way that they hit your soft spot and therefore resulting you to feel so touched and loved by the writer.
Sometimes people just think that Jason is always smiling, full of burst of energy, always laughing.
BUT
Have people ever wondered why am i always with a smile ? Why is it that i'm always happy even when they're not? Why can Jason even laugh in a situation when people are crying? Can't this irritating guy who smiles all the time rub it off his hedious face!
The fact is Jason has always been smiling becoz he always believes that whenever he's happy people around him will be happy too. When people are around him happy it sorta please him. Though i know i'm not some magical person but then there are times where i fail to fufil my aim of making the best out of everyone. But i've tired and i'm sorry to all those people that i've caused a negative effect.
Bitching, Straightforward, Scarcistic, Dramatic, Full of himself, Racist, Hope-less
These are probably the few words that describes me the best now.
Joining your world with the one beyond, open the doors to love you wont forget. Admiring the scenery which depicts the autumn fall and winter snow, Sliding through the fountain of youth, still young, embracing it. Only person who isn't easy to be loved for love will have to slowly open him up.. Numbering the beautiful name you have , carving the path to you and me!
Is that a confession of love to me?? Or is it a description of my name. Like you said maybemy feelings for you now is infatuation. But then again who knows what the future holds. What i know now is that. I like You and I want to be with you. Isn't it simplified enough ?! IDK.. Like you said two days to test if it's "Infatuation" or not.
As i've mentioned in my previous post that i'm going tanning. And this ^ picture is one of the bestest pic we've taken today. I'm now tan-ner now!! haha..coz i missed last two week's dose of Vitamin D and i was so enjoying every part of it today!! =D So yupp..This week's Monday isn't that blue at all in fact it's Brownish-Bronze!! Lastly, A song Mannequin by Katy Perry
Where couples flooded all over the place and love being felt everywhere.
Today went out with Sandra. Spend my whole V-Day with her going to Vivo. We practically shopped the Vivo man. I bought a wind-breaker and a new pair of shoes!! We had sushi for lunch. Took many many photos together. We both look great !!
"Sandra you're so fucking pretty today" "Jason you looking so fucking handsome today" Was the most used lines today when we were together.
We then went to Sentosa. Walked from one end of the island to another. We discovered alot of spiders and creepy crawlies on the way to Underwater World. We had a joyful of time in there. Avoiding some people was one of our aim. Tooks plenty more pictures of us and the fishes.
We both got tired. "Take the bus!! It's nearer than taking the tramp back to Vivo" :was what i said and we took a freaking long time just to get back to Vivo.
Today i woke up to went to meet U. Then went to school straight for lessons. Then i was still thinking of whether we should be together or not. Though i gave thoughts all about it since last night i've finally came out with the answer. The answer though i know to both of us is pretty shocking and surprising but i've decided.
Then evening came. Thinking about how should i tell U my answer. Then i texted U. Then shortly you replied. U asked many questions. U doubt me. U questioned me. U questioned yourself. I saw. I read. I didn't know what to say. Then U called.
I guessed this song mean so so much to me and you-konw-who. Oh well. Today has been erm..A bad tuesday. Though my monday wasn't that blue afterall. V.Day's coming. Alone? Or Taken? The answer which i don't even dare to asked or be asked now.
First up we have picture which was taken not long ago.
Next up i hav an e-mail regarding star signs. U know those in e-mails yea. I't gud to sometimes know what you are. =D
VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships.. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Ha rsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.
SCORPIO - The Intense One
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.
LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.
ARIES - The Daredevil
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge... EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.
AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.
GEMINI - The Chatterbox
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, but is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.
LEO - The Boss
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. D oing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.
CANCER - The Protector
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.
PISCES - The Dreamer
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.
CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly y at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.
TAURUS - The Enduring One
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.
Yesterday i did my practical exam in school. I got one of the most well known strict lecturer for my examiner but luck thing was i got the easiest skills out of the three that i think it is. It's ECG. Haha..After picking and being in the room the feeling wasn't that bad. =D I mean i didn't feel any tinge of nervousness or being afraid of her.
Anyway it's been almost one week since we've met. U must be really happy to see me again this weekend. =)
One more week and Examz are like HERE!! OMG..Gotta start with revision real soon!!
6th Feburary 2009 Thursday(One week and day more to Valentine's Day)
As Valentine's Day is apporaching. We can see love being spread more openly and drasticially all over the place. Shopping centers for examples. They are all selling those lovely roses and cuddlely teddies are to be found all over.
Just went to had dinner with Lovely Sandra and Marcus C. at Swensense. Then did some shopping around the mall and head home. Managed to catch the first episode of Lifewatch. Woo!! i tell you guys out there especially u're a nurse to be like me. Definately, Should and MUST watch!!! haha..coz it's a reality show and it's too real to know it's made up. =D Convincing enough ?? HAHATomorrow's my NSL (Nursing Skills Lab) Practical exam for this Sem. Three topics only : ECG, Chest Tube Insertion and Blood Transfusion. Sounds real easy peasy huh?? Not at all when they're going to be topics that you'll have to draw lots in and do them for practical.
For Sandra. I know this week have been a rather hectic and horrible week for me. I'm sorry for treating you bad in any ways. But you know i still LUV you, Sandra and of coz U out there!! =D
For U. Weekends are approaching !! Meaning..You know what it means!!
Transition from a Blue Monday to a Better Tuesday.
Today to start with wasn't really well until i met up with Sandra. =D
Don't konw why everytime when i meet up with her.Everything juz seemed so fine..^^,
Of coz being with U too.
Then i was doing my stuff juz now and had a chat with Kryshelle. and this was part of it or rather the Ambass part 2 of what we were chatting abt :
Yar-sen says (11:42 PM): hey ask u ar.. Yar-sen says (11:43 PM): u used to be real close with Edmund right ?? Yar-sen says (11:43 PM): now still ?? .Krysh. says (11:43 PM): erm not so much .Krysh. says (11:43 PM): why? Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): ohh Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): no la asking onli lo.. Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): =S Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): coz rmb we used to be pretty close when we were in Xperience ?? .Krysh. says (11:44 PM): hahahahhaha .Krysh. says (11:44 PM): why? Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): =P Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): now we all seemed to be drifting apart.. Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): except me and fe and u la.. Yar-sen says (11:44 PM): Kahliash a lit too Yar-sen says (11:45 PM): Edmund is too far arldy .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): hahah Yar-sen says (11:45 PM): =S .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): khalisah totally changed dear .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): hahaha .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): we all knew edmund had it in him .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): but khalisah .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): i dunno .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): i dun want to badmouth her .Krysh. says (11:45 PM): but i barely know her anymore Yar-sen says (11:45 PM): =D Yar-sen says (11:45 PM): Yea.. Yar-sen says (11:45 PM): Yar-sen says (11:46 PM): juz feeling real emotional when i think back on how close we used to be when we were in year 1 Yar-sen says (11:46 PM): no conflicts at all.. Yar-sen says (11:46 PM): no worries.. Yar-sen says (11:46 PM): nothing to care abt as well Yar-sen says (11:46 PM): =D .Krysh. says (11:47 PM): hahahahha .Krysh. says (11:47 PM): true .Krysh. says (11:47 PM): well .Krysh. says (11:47 PM): we all grow up .Krysh. says (11:47 PM): ahaha
Oh wells.. That's it for a Monday Blue's post.. =)
Well this weekend was pretty great coz i got tanner!! like finally!! =D and this time i mean it like how Bernice would say: " TTM " (To The Max) ^^,
This is the second Saturday i've spent with Sandra to go tanning with her at Sentosa. How cool can it be right?! i know..HAHA..
So the we went to join my youngest cousin Thesally to the flower show with her parents as well.. ^^
While waiting for this little girl to hav her nap and all Sandra and i did some studying and window shopping. =D
This week has been a pretty fast one due to the two terrible weekdays that have been taken away by the Lunar New Year. Been to like soo many people's house. I'd like to Thank Sandra,Jasmine,Jennifer,Ms Michelle for letting me go over to your house for visiting.. =)
Now it's the horrendious week that's approaching..Practical Exam!! Date Dues!! Examz!! Attachment!! Geez!! How am i going to survive =O
Anway i'll upload the photos once and for all for these two tanning sessions..Oh oh oh yes next week i'll be going swimming!! So excited!! =D
