Chapters.Pages.Paragraphs.

Like what he'd mention in one of his post

"...almost forgotten how it feels like to love.
the very basic feeling of love.
the intimacy.
the hugging.
the kissing.
the feeling of love.
i missed the feeling.
i missed the smell.
that special scent of love.
the pure indulgence in it.
hugging ever so tightly.
kissing ever so passionately.
the simple, basic feel of love.
no complexity.
no hidden meaning.
i cant bear to release the hug.
gripping on ever so tightly.
holding on to it for dear life.
i am afraid it would be be lost.
be gone.
slipping through my fingers.
and it did. it ended."
i think i need to fall in love again to be Jason again. Where is the real me??

Which brings me to the next topic. U want me to be Jason again and when you have disappeared for like 2 months. what do you think i feel. have you thought of it ?? maybe you thought it'll do me good by not contacting me coz i'm busy with school and watching TV. but hey having Short Term Meomory is not an excuse. Then you go use the examples of best friends not contacting you for months will i forget them etc. I just don't know how to express myself and the effort of me trying to recall is really the max i tell you when we were on the phone just now. I don't mean to forget you but after what we've done and U telling me that you're straight. I totally switched off that time like u've said i keep blaming everyone but not myself. I agree i always do that finding excuses to cover my arse. Sigh. But now when i know you've "found" me nevertheless i'm glad that you despite me not remembering U you still cared so much abt me and willing to talk to me. I'm touched.

Then now it's the post for today. Part 2 Like maybe onli Sarah and Him knows that today i was bored stiff being alone at home. I swear if anyone were to place a camera in my room you're totally in for a comical show. I was like talking to myself tried to play music over the net. Worst of all i felt like having sex. Just to kill the boredom. Like totally damnit right?? Basically coz He was tired and didn't want to meet me. But oh well i can't do anything too right?? So i went online and had a session with Sarah. Did some push-ups later in my room and then went back to chatting again. In the whole process i only had 1/4 packet of peacans and 3/4 of vitasoy.Luckily dad came back to "Chase'' me out of the house to find sis. Found her at EXPO then we both head down to PP for a haircut together. Really short were our hair. Sis has been complaining since we left REDS.

ALL in all a Damaged Saturday?? Or Not ??